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new exercise plan, determined to stick to these exercises every day!

weighed myself this morning; 147 pounds, not sure how accurate my scales are though! 

I keep looking at clothes, and just keep thinking, I wish I could wear something like that, and not feel hideous. Which makes me want to get into the workout routine, but I just never seem to be able to stick to it :( any tips on how to keep it going?

rant, just a de-stress

some days I just feel so bad about myself, and the way I look, and I just wish that I could stop eating, and I do just hate myself sometimes. and it scares me when I think like this, as part of me thinks I could actually do it,  and I would never like to get to that place. it’s just hard to look around at all my friends who all have these amazing figures and are all so confident in themselves, and can just seem to eat what they want and do no exercise and have it not matter, and then there’s me who is like a whale compared to them and it’s just fucking hard. 

Did an hour on the treadmill again yesterday, and 2000m of rowing! Couldn’t go today as pretty sure I would have keeled over, but gonna go for longer tomorrow hopefully!

Planning to go to the gym today, only annoying thing is I have to work it around meeting my friend to give him carnage shirt money! Hopefully get there about half 1ish, just hoping it won’t be too busy

spent an hour on the treadmill today, well, 57 minutes to be exact, felt good, feet are killing me now though! Wanted to do some weights but our gym is tiny and it was packed so just went hoome!

Did an hour yesterday at the gym as well, shoes kept falling off while I was trying to do the rower, sounds hilarious, really wasn’t!

go gym eh